Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Back to the Drawing Board.

Ok, I realize that my last post was in June & since it's been so long, no one other than me is probably going to be reading this blog, but I'm going to use it anyway. If nothing else, it will serve as an online journal for me. It's back to the drawing board for me. I've let life get in the way of me trying to healthy & have done what I've always done & gained back the losses that I had made & am once again in the position that I need to start over.

After much thought, I've realized that I've tried nearly everything. I've done the low carb, no carb, grapefruit, Nutrisystem, LA Weight Loss, & Weight Watchers diets (just to name a few). I've purchased oodles of workout videos & equipment that promised amazing results in no time. I've even tried to just eat healthy on my own & get some regular workouts in. It's not that none of these things work, it's that I haven't made them work for me. The common factor is that I don't stick to anything on my own. I make some good losses - 20lbs or so, then I gradually, for no good reason, quit & go right back to where I was (or worse).

So, as I sat here thinking about the fact that I can't go on certain rides at an amusement park with my kids because I know I won't fit, or that the seatbelt in my friends' cars are a tight fit & worry about how much longer it's going to be before I can't get them around me anymore. I thought about the fact that I have to think about what direction I'm going to walk around my classroom to check my students' progress because I can't fit between some of the computer stations and how I'm constantly waiting on one of them to get mad at me and drop the F bomb in the middle of class (and I mean calling me fat). Although my husband has never been anything but supportive, I worry that he's going to get sick of being married to someone who is so different looking than the girl he first fell in love with.

Then it hit me. The one thing that I've never tried is a personal trainer. In the past, I couldn't have afforded it, but since I've gone back to work, I think I will be able to swing it now. I've contacted a girl who is amazing. She has set and exceeded so many goals for herself & I just know that she can help me now. If you are a Biggest Loser fan, I would describe her as a mixture between Bob & Jillian and exactly what I need. She's agreed to train me & now I'm just waiting on her to get herself organized & tell me when we are starting. I'm so excited that I just don't know what to do with myself. Once we get started I'll be posting my progress, until then I hope you all get another chance to do whatever it is that you didn't accomplish the first time (or 2nd or 3rd, etc if you're like me). Have a great evening!


samiam4eva06 said...

YAY Your back! So you must keep us posted on the trainer.. it sounds amazing!! I wish I had one of those!?>
Oh, and your daughters are adorable!!!!

Anonymous said...

Keep your focus and you can definitely do it. Looking forward to hearing about your journey! :)

Amy S. said...

We are here, so update us!!! Hope life is grand!